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| woooow long time since i updated. so here goes.
life's been interesting since i got back to school. definately tho
there has been a steady growth i think in my faith. everyday is really
different cause i'm always hearing/learning/figuring out these crazy
insights about life, relationships school or whatever. yea i'm so tired
these days too, but like i'm getting a lot closer to feeling free from
all the burdens w/ stress about school and all that crap. its so easy i
feel like for me, or us rather, to become so bogged down w/ grades and
school and not see to care about anything else. LIKEWISE i think people
can go to the other extreme too totally flaking on their schoolwork or
responsibilities which is totally easy to do too thinking that well i'm
graduating from school someday and i'm sure God'll provide
something.......yea i realized that we do need to put everything we can
into what we're trying to achieve. i've realized that yea, u know what?
i'm not that great in science. hell, i'm like average if at that here.
and like soooo many other people do like 20 points above average
without studying while i'm barely gettin by w/ my average at best
grades. and do i think that'll get me into med school? who knows but
the question i'm askin my self is am i gonna at least try?
damn straight...this is what i love and even tho i might not be the
best at it, u know what i'm doing what i think God's telling me and so
I"m gonna do that to my fullest. and it sucks when i get an exam back,
thats like a 64 when the average was a 74. but unless God closes the
door on this completely, what else am I to do but just press on? he
won't partially tell me to where to go, but he'll make perfectly clear
what i'm to do. i'm positive of that. i mean is this life for my
enjoyment anyways? why am i even at college if not for the betterment
of myself to better serve others? i aint living for myself, nor am I
living to help myself.... so thats the main crux of what
i've learned.....
haha freshman this year are interesting. they're going to everything
christian and thats soo awesome. i feel like their class is gonna be
pretty cool, as long as they stay in the church and stuff, i hope i can
help them and stuff cause I"m so grateful to the older guys that
helped, and still do help, me in things when i'm in need.
birthday! it was awesome, my room was filled w/ a million
balloons.......soo many birthday wishes, i honestly wished that no one
would make a big fuss or anything cause its just not necessary but man,
i was surprised...
 
yea it was sooo nice...the best so far..haha every year it gets better!
aite..gota study some more. somehow, i think i'm addicted to studying.
oh well. laters
-dan
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| start of a new year. hm...yea sucks
8 am orgo. blah!
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oy...so i'm tryin to figure out how to be productive. i read for about an hour today...i guess thats a start.....
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| ok so i've since dropped orgo....i dropped it last thursday cause i had
to figure out my loans and stuff and i realized that it was probably
not going to work out anyway. and just to confirm my feelings, i looked
at my grade today and found that i actually hadn't done so well....
so i guess i haven't been doing much since class doesn't mean a lot
anymore. i've been kinda bumming around, tho i still audit some of the
classes, i really do have a lot of time on my hands. and one my friends
is leaving for home then korea in a few days, so i'm kinda bummed about
that. but all in all, i'm just kinda bored.....hmm what to do....any suggestions?
All I know is that I see how much my heart
Is longing to be cradled by your side
And I'll give all I can to one day soon
Be held by your hand, by your hand (alone)
"No, not until you are satisfied,
Fulfilled and content with being loved by me alone,
With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to me,
To having an intensely personal and unique relationship with me alone,
Discovering that only in me is your satisfaction to be found
Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship
That I have planned for you.
You will never be united with another until you are united with me,
Exclusive of anyone or anything else,
Exclusive of any other desires or longings."
"I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,
And allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing,
One that you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the best, please allow me to bring it to you.
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am,
Keep listening and learning the things I tell you,
Just wait, that's all."
"Don't be anxious, don't worry,
Don't look around at the things others have gotten
Or that I have given them.
Don't look at the things you think you want.
Just keep looking off and away up to me,
Or you'll miss what I want to show you."
(hah stole this last part from a friend)
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aite....later